GHADAMNIT

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

no, i’m not happy. i’m crying. -___-

i’m crying the hell out of me. nagmamatigas pa ako. tsk. taas kasi ng pride ko, damn. we fought. i dunno. i told him about genesis. hugs and all. he’s mad about that, i think. plus, hindi ko pa sya tinigilan sa pang-aasar sa kanila ni Melissa. 

kung tutuusin, ang kapal nga naman ng mukha ko. parang yun nga LANG naman ang kasalanan nya, kumpara sa nagawa ko nung nakaraan. ang difference lang e, kami na ngayon, at nung nagkasala ako, hindi pa kami non. pero parang ganon na din yon siguro. tapos yon, ang lakas pa ng loob kong magalit at kung ano-ano. err, hindi naman sa nagagalit. pero yung pang-asar. simpleng pagpaparinig na pang-asar. err. ewan ko!!! 

gusto ko talaga sya suyuin e. lambingin. ghadddddamnnit! but it’s too late. nag-out na ata talaga sya. kaso bakit ganon, ang hirap. ang hirap. arrr. damnnnnn. my tears won’t stop. damn! damn! damn! di na ako lalabas ng kwarto. di na ako kakain. dito nalang ako. -_- letse ka mariz. letse. 

i shouldn’t have told him about genesis. but it’s not like matitiis ko yon. i just can’t such things to him. if i hid it, i’d be guilty. errr. cmon, i didn’t hug back. -__- and it’s totally nothing to me, i just wonder he’s suddenly like that to me. or ganun nalang talaga sya ngaun. err. nevermind. 

RE-BEL-DE. i suddenly thought na maging rebelde sa boyfriend ko. i dunno if am gonna pursue it. parang gusto ko, pero hindi ko naman kasi kaya. -__- kasi naman, letseng BABY YAN. 

AYOKO NA!

i don’t like this

it’s 2:12am again, sleepy and tired. I just finished cleaning my room. 

March 5 to 7, I wasn’t able to post anything. I’ve been too busy to open my website and post something. But i’m writing stuffs that happened to me on those days. i just got no time typing it. I guess, i’ll be posting it on, maybe, Friday. ERRR. i got so much to do. I’m going maddd. 

I am very very very tired today. I went with Jessa’s family to St. Francis Square. We’re there from 1pm to 4pm, then from 4pm to 8pm, we’re at SM Megamall. We’re walking non-stop. My feet, they’re dead. Thank God, Jessa asked me to sit for a while, as we wait for her mother and sister. We were in front of KFC. Different people passes in front of us, we can’t help but judge. XD

GROUP OF GUYS. buff guys. big guys. akala namin nung una kaya tumigil sa harap namin ay dahil nagpapansin. but we’re wrong. nanlaki nalang mata ko sa napansin ko. i quickly whispered to Jessa, “pakinggan mo sila.”  Napakunot noo nya, “Bakit ganooonnn…” She asked. geez, you know why? WHY. COZ THEY’RE FREAKIN’ FAGGGOOTTTS! eew. 

COUPLE NO. 1. We noticed them because of their shirts. It got prints saying I LOVE IVY and I LOVE HENRY. The back design is a number. but the most wonderful think we noticed, is that, they’re old. they’re old, but they still tend to be that sweet. It’s a very breath-taking scene. I don’t find them jologs, even if the fact that i don’t like the way the shirt is designed and printed, but beacause of that they look really happy, and it seems i could feel it too. I wish we are also like that when we get really old.

—–im really sleepy. ill continue this later.—–

damn. i feel so sick. i need jhonel. 

old people

ayokong-ayokong nakakakita ng matanda na sumasakay sa jeep. nasasaktan puso ko. pag nakakakita ako ng ganon, naiisip ko kagad papa ko. naiisip ko na, “ayokong makita syang ganito, ayokong pagdaanan nya yung ganito.” nalulungkot akong isipin na darating yung panahon na tatanda na talaga sila ng sobra.

tapos kanina din, habang bumibili ako ng lumpia. may nakita akong matanda na may bitbit na box ng biscuits, binebenta ata. tapos alam mo yung ambagal-bagal nya kumilos, parang hinang-hina, tapos puti na yung buhok na tapos pagod na pagod yung mata nya. grabe, pinagiisipan ko talaga na bumili nalang ng biscuit, kaso nabayad ko na sa lumpia yung pera ko e. haiiii. mahina talaga ako pagdating sa mga matatanda. 

naalala ko dati, hahatid ako ni daddy sa school, 5am ata non, may nadaanan kaming matandang lalake na may bitbit-bitbit na sako tapos hawak-hawak na manika. T_T naisip ko, napulot nya siguro yung manikang yon, tapos ipapasalubong nya sa anak nya o sa apo nya. grabe, grabe iyak ko non. namamaga mata ko pagbaba ko ng LRT station. ambabaw talaga ng luha ko, badtrip. nahihirapan ako makakita ng taong nahihirapan e. mahina ako don. arrrr.

gusto ko pagdating ni daddy at mommy sa stage na ganon, yung nanghihina na sila.. gusto ko tapos na sila sa pagtatrabaho para sa pamilya namin, gusto ko nagpapahinga at nagpapasarap nalang sila sa buhay sa mga panahon na yon. ako naman ang magtatrabaho para sa kanila. :] 

sila naman papasalubungan ko.

sila naman bibilhan ko ng gamit.

sila naman yung papatayuan ko ng bahay. 

sila naman yung aalagaan ko. 

Well, it made my heart smile

He made my heart smile.